Sometimes I just wish someone would pick up their phone...

So, tonight I had an awesome night and got really excited about class and the things I learned and the ways I was affirmed in continuing to learn how to serve the church well. I was impressed by my classmates and got jazzed about theology and other such things. Also, I had an intense conversation with my dad about politics. I am so glad to have a parent who will talk to me about these things. And then, I left class and was driving home. I tried to call a friend or a family member. No luck. So, I figured my roommates would be home. No luck there either. So I watched Sarah Palin's speech, took notes on her points and sat in my room alone. Roommates came home. They were tired from there days. This is understandable of course. I don't blame them. I was too. 

Basically, what I am saying is.... sometimes I just wish for someone who would always pick up their phone when I called. If for no other reason than just because they actually wanted to. Sometimes I feel like those I call pick up out of courtesy or something. Sometimes it just gets old not having someone to share my day with. Sometimes no one can fulfill that need I have to share and to be understood and to be known. In these times I wish I was stronger and willing to wait for the One who knows me instead of running to some immediate gratification source like facebook, myspace, gmail, skype or my phone. 

What if I was courageous enough to stay still? What if I was strong enough to write or journal or find comfort in something other than another human being listening to me? Maybe this day is coming soon. I feel closer to it than I have been. I was still this morning...just for a bit. But mostly, I just wish someone would pick up there phone. Or, here's dreamin'... that someone would just call me at soon as I started to feel forgotten :) For now, I'll use the blog site as therapy and go to sleep real soon and try again tomorrow to be present to the now I find myself in and thankful for the many who love me.