a day to celebrate

today is a day i have been working for in my first 9 months in a new place and at a new job. it's no secret that any new job is never usually a walk in the park and mine has been no different. these first nine months have been full of hard work, exhaustion, doubt, fear, building relationships, repairing relationships, paperwork (which I loath), long lonely days of pressure and no team, building a team, networking in the community, etc. and all for what? i wonder.... i know my education, experience and passion has led me here but more than one time, i have been done. gone home, cried, despaired.

and yet, somehow in the midst of the chaos, in the midst of feeling totally inadequate. i see the hand of god. i see god using me to shed light in dark places, to allow those god loves the most to feel that love and to convince the surrounding community that rosedale ridge is indeed worthy of their time, energy and efforts. i see god making relationship with the property management team enjoyable. i see god blessing my days with new energy and i see god loving me along the way, picked me up when i am down and reminding me who i walk with each day.

when i was a little girl my mom would always tell me when i went to school that i did not go alone, god was always with me.

and it's true. god is-in the faces of beautiful people whom the world would like to judge for their decisions or catagorize for their station in life or skin color. god meets me in the computer room next to my office and breaths peace into my soul on the toughest of days.

today is a day to celebrate because angela-a lady i have cared about so much verbalized her appreciation and rainbow mennonite church called me telling me they were going to help a resident due to their relationship with phoenix family. this is good day.

may god-the god of love-the god who is present be praised. may those who journey with me, listen to my stories and care about the things i care about be appreciated...